Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Personal Request


I am posting tonight to request prayers of strength from those of you who would care to do so. September is a hard month for me. Not because my birthday or anything, but because 4 years ago the 28th I lost my little brother and I am having a really hard night tonight. Just hit me as I was putting my little guy to bed. All of a sudden I start remembering every detail of the night in the hospital after his wreck when I got to go in after he already passed and hold his hand and say goodbye. I have cried for about 2 hours straight tonight b/c I felt like I needed too. Over the next week or so, you will probably get a few more of these requests as the devil loves to remind me of all the reasons I should be mad, upset, and angry with God for taking a wonderful 18 year old from this earth, from me. I know God has a plan and I HAVE to have FAITh in Him. Without my faith, I don't know if I would have gotten out of bed on the 29th, or 30th, or 1st. or ever. Some of you may not be a believer and I am sure you have your reasons, and I respect everyone's beliefs, but for me, I HAVE to have faith. I don't have Matt, aka Bubba, so Faith is all I have. Faith, memories, pictures, and his namesake, my Matthew. PLEASE say a special prayer of protection from the enemy and STRENGTH for me. Blessings. - SJ

16 comments:

the whimsical butterfly said...

Sending hugs, SJ. I can't imagine what your family has been through and I wish there was more I could say or do, but I know that your Faith is stronger than your pain. Praying for and thinking of you, sweetie. HUGS!!!!

Melisa said...

you and your family are in my thoughts Sammye Jo.

Stephanie *SP Diva* said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers sweetie. I can't begin to imagine what that is like, but I know God has a plan. Prayers and hugs are coming your way!

Sandra Dee said...

May the LORD give you strength and peace through this time. His will is stronger than you and I can ever fathom. The enemy tries to tell us otherwise... When the time comes you will be rejoined with your brother in a life without pain. May GOD BLESS YOU through this time and always!

Lilacanglia said...

sending you hugs and prayers,
and strength,
September is a horrid month for things like this,
Both my grandparents went to heaven in this month, so I totally understand what you are going throu,
remember the good times, and that he is watching over you.
Hugs
Angie

- - Sheryl - - said...

Sammye Jo,
Please post away - this will be good therapy. Blogger buddies to keep you company and to be with. A good cry is also good.
Thoughts to you!
Sheryl

Amy Copas said...

Dear God, Please be with Sammye Jo. Strengthen her. Comfort her. Encourage her. Help her to feel your loving arms around her always - whether it's holding her hand, hugging her or carrying her when she needs you to. Thank you for all your blessings. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Praying for you SammyeJo!

Kaytee said...

I am sending prayers and hugs your way!!

*Alison* said...

Sammye Jo, I just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts, my heart, and my prayers.. If you need anything at all. Please let me know, I would be happy to do what I can.. HUGS HUGS HUGS... www.stretchnbubbles.blogspot.com

Amanda Profumo said...

Hold on to faith, it will get you through. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers for the rest of the month. Stay strong, faith and love will comfort.

Crystal said...

oh, sammye jo! bless your heart! i just said a prayer for you and i can honestly say that i do know what you are going through honey! it was nine years in july that i lost my little sister, who was 21, and that month is always a difficult one for me. as well as the holidays. as the time has gone by, the days have gotten better, but i can honestly say i still have days where it feels like yesterday and the tears don't stop. so stay strong babe! i know the LORD will ease your pain and give you strength to get through. faith is such a wonderful thing to have and i wouldn't know what i would do if i didn't have any. super big hugs your way!

Ginny said...

Sending some virtual hugs your way! I don't pray, but you for sure are in my thoughts right now. You will be strong, don't even doubt it for a 2nd. Keep turning to your bloggy friends, they will help give you strength. Sometimes it is nice knowing a stranger cares for you, even if it seems silly. I'm so so sorry for your loss!

Amy Croley said...

praying for you!

*hugs*

craft_princess said...

Oh Sammye Jo...I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. I don't pray nearly as often as I should but I do believe in God and that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes I too have to remind myself that God has a much bigger plan than I will ever understand....especially during the hard times it is important to remember this. It was 5 years ago that my older sis lost her baby girl in womb. I know we never got to meet this small child (until after death) but the effect it had on our family was huge and the baby (Rebecca) was old enough that we had to have a proper burial. This was my sisters 3rd loss in a row. It was a dreadful time...probably one of the hardest things to understand and go through....it is still painful to think about and sometimes I ask myself why but I just have to trust in the Lord and like you said...have faith! I could ramble on for hours but I will just say that you are not alone...if you need to talk several of us are here to listen!
I will say a special prayer for you tonight!

Hugs,
-Stacie

Fun Mama - Deanna said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can relate to having a difficult time near the date of the loss. My heart goes out to you and your family and I hope that you're able to have some peace soon.

Karen L said...

Thinking of you and your family SammyeJo. I can't even imagine losing a family member at such a young age and I send prayers that you will make it through this tough time.

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