
I am posting tonight to request prayers of strength from those of you who would care to do so. September is a hard month for me. Not because my birthday or anything, but because 4 years ago the 28th I lost my little brother and I am having a really hard night tonight. Just hit me as I was putting my little guy to bed. All of a sudden I start remembering every detail of the night in the hospital after his wreck when I got to go in after he already passed and hold his hand and say goodbye. I have cried for about 2 hours straight tonight b/c I felt like I needed too. Over the next week or so, you will probably get a few more of these requests as the devil loves to remind me of all the reasons I should be mad, upset, and angry with God for taking a wonderful 18 year old from this earth, from me. I know God has a plan and I HAVE to have FAITh in Him. Without my faith, I don't know if I would have gotten out of bed on the 29th, or 30th, or 1st. or ever. Some of you may not be a believer and I am sure you have your reasons, and I respect everyone's beliefs, but for me, I HAVE to have faith. I don't have Matt, aka Bubba, so Faith is all I have. Faith, memories, pictures, and his namesake, my Matthew. PLEASE say a special prayer of protection from the enemy and STRENGTH for me. Blessings. - SJ