those of you who know me, I am a "positive polly" not a "negative nancy". well, today things have caught up with me I do believe. So much has gone on with my family, losses, health issues, etc. in the past couple of years and I try to take it all in stride.
i KNOW there is a reason. I have complete FAITH in God's plan.
BUT, I am human.
well, dustin, my hubby, has been having even more trouble after the 2 previous surgeries, all for us to get a call last week after another CT scan to say that something isn' right. still. so, again we are on someone else's time waiting for them to figure it out. this means more surgery, maybe even the same one. for the third time. if that is possible. poor guy is taking it hard. he just wants to be his version of "okay" and get back to life. He has been in this house for a year now. talk about burnt. i know he wishes he could help out more with matthew. watch him, hang out more, go outside and play.
i know he wishes he could help out more around the house. help clean, grocery errands, etc. but in the reality, he can't. he isn't supposed to be driving yet. (the occasional trip to the gas station to get a fountain drink so he doesn't lose his sanity is necessary though, but he pays for it the day after.)
he is stuck. he is at other's mercy. the doctors, the healthcare fiasco, etc.
he just wants to go back to his workplace, continue to build the business his dad worked so hard to do, and for us to be a normal family.
My Mother-In-Law is about th same. They are hoping to have her in patient rehab by the weekend. Still so much to be determined abotu her health and such. continuing to pray for her. Dust is obviously very concerned about his mom, as am I.
I PRAISE God in all this we have not had to worry financially. i am very thankful for 2 successful businesses that allow us to not have a financial strain.
but money nor success cannot buy the little things we really want.
good health for all.
to be able to go to the movies together.
take a quick weekend trip.
for Matthew not to develop Marfan's.
to have a campout.
to play a baseball game together- all 3 of us.
to go to a baseball game together.
you get my drift. the simple things most take for granted.
anyways- my headaches have been continous for over a week right now and I have the peace of mind of knowing my MRI was clear and well.
so, I know that they are stress related. i think i do a really good job of hiding my stress. might be why the headaches linger so much.
i am really missing my brother right now too. something about spring. the newness, the life, the wish that he was here to enjoy my little guy. because i so know he would.
and it's Easter. last Easter was the last get together for my family before my grandpa passed. my first grandparent to lose. again something about the spring.
i wish we lived closer to my family. it's only an hour and a half, but i want to be next door :) Matthew wouldn't know what to do :)
So, i know this has sounded like a depressing rant, but know that this blog, my crafts, is how I destress, I take my stress out by creating, it makes me smile and happy. i LOVE sharing with each of you and I appreciate each and every comment.
so, i am sorry if I have been a bad friend, bad blogger, and follower, as my comments around blog world have been scarse the last few weeks.
Now, because I am that "positive polly" I will close this post with my blessings :)
my family (dust & Matthew, mom/dad, sis, etc.)
my friends (ecspecially the ones who understand me :)
spring :) & warmer weather
my overall health
my health and the health of my family- I KNOW things can always get worse.
my beautiful little boy and his sense of humor. (if you need a smile, borrow a 3 year old for a day :)
Thank you for allowing my rant :) Take a minute to think of your little blessings.
i plan to continue to count my rainbows, not the thunderstorms.